Deload = Reload

My deload week could not have come at a better time. Not only was ZachR out of town all week leaving me with sole responsibly of our puppy, but I was wrecked both physically and mentally. I was tired and groggy most of the mornings I got to the gym (which was 5 of 6, btw). My body decided that I couldn't move a lot of weight, or move any weight quickly, for that matter. Mentally, I was exhausted and distraught; my lack of confidence lately has really been taking a toll on my training.

I think the thing that will hold me back the most in my pursuit of the Open/Regionals/Games will be my confidence level. I don't like trying something and not succeeding. I don't want to let people around me down. I am extremely competitive and truly get upset when someone calls time before me. I have a skewed body image (as do most women). I am not as strong/fast as I know I could/should be.

I was given an article to read recently that spoke all about how to increase your confidence as a Crossfitter. It had some pertinent information that I am trying to take to heart: fake it till you make it, befriend people better than you, never stop trying. Since my confidence level isn't through the roof, I have to act like I have all the confidence in the world. I have to approach every workout like I am going to kick it's ass. I need to walk with my head held tall at all times. Becoming friends with other competitors is brilliant advice; you can discuss workout strategies or struggles you both have had. Chances are, they have been nervous or apprehensive before as well. The last piece should be the most obvious, but it is the most difficult for me. I really like to give up on something if I don't think I can succeed. I have always been a fan of the easy way out; although, I absolutely turned a corner when I decided to train.

Week 3

Monday: 

• Press: 15(+) @ 40#
• Conditioning: 5 rds: 45 seconds work, 15 seconds rest of T2B and burpee box jump over (20in) = 83
• Oly: Hang Power Clean: 4x8 @83# (65%)

Tuesday: 

• Conditioning: AMRAP 10 minutes: 3 ring rows, 3 ring dips (with blue band), 3 ring pushups - 7ish rds - I stopped counting after 2. 

Wednesday: 

• Deadlift: 15 @ 105#
• Assistance work: 3x10 pistols, 3x15 GHRaise

Thursday:

• Conditioning: 5 rds: 45 sec work, 15 sec rest of 65# Overhead Squat (OHS), barbell rollouts, renegade rows = 167
• Mobility: a lot

Friday: 

• Squat: 15 @ 85
• Bench: 15 @ 48
• Assistance Work: RDL 3x12 @63#, GHD 2x20, HSPU Negatives 3x5, Shrugs 3x10 @63

Saturday: 

• Conditioning: Partner AMRAP 25 minutes: 15 box jumps (20"), 100m sprint, 15 power cleans (55#), 100 double unders, 15 double wall balls (16#), 100m sprint, 15 pullups - 4rds + 1st run. 

I don't usually go to Saturday morning workouts 1) because I don't want to drive all the way there on Saturdays too and 2) I workout Monday - Friday hard and get the weekend off. However, my sister just joined the gym and really wanted to work the vodka out of our system from Friday night so we went. She did more of the work than I did, but I think we broke it up rather well. She's fun to workout with because she is so much better than me that I just want to be like her.

This week really helped restore some of the confidence I had been lacking. In my brain, I know the weight was light, but I was happy that it felt light. I needed a few days that made me feel strong. I am more excited for this upcoming week where I get to do 1+ for my 4 lifts.